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The Dream

I had the dream perhaps around winter early 2004. Not sure exactly. In it I was in a class on magic. The other studentswere young girls, all part fairy and part human. We were taking a test, a pop quiz, and I was having trouble with it until I realized that the key was in my bubblegum--in particular in the color coding in the Fruity Sticks. I wondered if it was cheating, it seemed so easy. As I took out each color of stick of gum, I was shown a thing (in my head, like a vision in the dream) that represented each answer. On the paper for the test I merely wrote down the colors' name.

Towards the end of the test the paper seemed to be getting smaller and smaller. I dropped the pen when I realized I was floating. Still in the tall classroom, I rose higher and higher, my long black skirts and dreadlocks billowing as if there was a soft wind coming from underneath the room.

When I got towards the top of the ceiling I looked across and saw a large oval gilt mirror hanging on the wall opposite me. As I saw my reflection the colors of the gum and of the magic colored my hair and my dress, one after another after another. Black naturally, then slowly from head to toe, my hair and dress and skirts turned—white, grey, blue, purple, black, red, orange, yellow, green, brown. Then finally one last time, to a very pale white. My hair, my skirts, all deathly white. My eyes, black.

I drifted back to the floor slowly. The girls were all looking at me, pale and wide-eyed. The teacher backed away, left the classroom. I looked down at my test and there was an “A+” marked on it, with a comment “How did you get these answers? They’re all very correct but I’m puzzled.” I was still all white, nearly an albino other than my black eyes. I walked away from the classroom into the sunshine with a feeling of power.

I woke feeling I’d had a magical lesson. I wasn't sure in my waking state what but did feel I had to illustrate it, somehow.

I wrote down ideas and numbers and corresponding magical and Kabalistic and practical terms, all interrelated. It took me a good deal of research and work, thinking and revising and redoing, but finally, finally I was happy with the results.

I then brought home ten glass jars, took off their labels, cleaned them. Assigned each its task of ideas and symbols. Drew the corresponding symbol on each one. Found appropriate objects to place in each. Painted the tops of each one white, black or silver, as fit. Filled each (except two) with isopropyl alcohol, or water, and color. I will find lights to light up the back of each one, so it glows with intensity. And take photos, so y’all can see for yourself what beauty they are.

This is a basis for a complete magical system. All else is expansion of what already exists. Study the correspondences and how they interrelate, and you will find no error. Only the power of a dream.

Number 0 is Memory.

It was shown to me as the Self, and represents forgetting, its dual opposite.
It is strongest at dusk.
It is neither male nor female—it is genderless. It is represented as Self.
Its Kabalistic symbol is Keter, or Crown; it is represented by God.
Its symbol is the infinity sign: an elongated number “8”.
Its water is milk white and contains a single key.

Number 1 is Sleep.

It was shown to me as a Sleepwalker, and represents dreaming.
It is strongest at early night; it is male. It is represented by Ether.
Its Kabalistic symbol is Hochma, or Wisdom; it is represented by Man.
Its symbol is an eyelid, closed.
Its water is grey and contains sand.

Number 2 is Magic.

It was shown to me as a Dragonfly, and represents flying and fantasy.
It is strongest at midnight; it is female. It is represented by Spirit.
Its Kabalistic symbol is Binah, or Understanding; it is represented by Woman.
Its symbol is a dark angel.
Its water is blue and contains glitter.

Number 3 is Decay.

It was shown to me as a broken male Doll, and represents death, disease and pestilence.
It is strongest at late night, it is male. It is represented by Wood.
Its Kabalistic symbol is Hesed, or Mercy; it is represented by a Unicorn.
Its symbol is a tall cross with a circle through the top.
Its water is purple and contains bones and insects.

Number 4 is Pain.

It was shown to me as a black Pool, and represents despair.
It is strongest at very late night, before light shows in the sky; it is neither male nor female—it is genderless. It is represented by Stone.
Its Kabalistic symbol is Giburah, or Strength; it is represented by a Lizard.
Its symbol is an “X”.
It has no water and contains three shiny icicles, wrapped in black hemp.

Number 5 is Desire.

It was shown to me as a Mirror, and represents power, sex and vanity.
It is strongest at dawn; it is female. It is represented by Fire.
Its Kabalistic symbol is Tiferet, or Beauty; it is represented by a Phoenix.
Its symbol is a spiral.
Its water is red and contains mirror shards and a dolls eyeball.

Number 6 is Laughter.

It was shown to me as a Hanged Man, or Pan, and represents comedy and foolishness.
It is strongest at morning; it is male. It is represented by Metal.
Its Kabalistic symbol is Netzach, or Victory; it is represented by a Lynx.
Its symbol looks like an upside down fancy number “4”.
Its water is orange and contains Mardi-Gras beads.

Number 7 is Pleasure.


It was shown to me as a Young Girl, and represents love.
It is strongest at noon; it is female. It is represented by Water.
Its Kabalistic symbol is Hode, or Splendor; it is represented by a Hermaphrodite.
Its symbol looks like a snake sitting on eggs.
Its water is yellow and contains a doll head and a dildo.

Number 8 is Knowledge.

It was shown to me as Books, and represents learning and wealth.
It is strongest at early evening; it is male. It is represented by Air.
Its Kabalistic symbol is Yesode, or Foundation; it is represented by an Elephant.
Its symbol is seven horizontal lines; the first and last are longer than the middle ones.
Its water is green and contains silver coins and a candle.

Number 9 is Life.

It was shown to me as a Lady, and represents mother, fertility and creation.
It is strongest at evening, before dusk; it is female. It is represented by Earth.
Its Kabalistic symbol is Mahlkoot, or Kingdom; it is represented by a Sphinx.
Its symbol is an ankh.
It has brown moisture and contains seeds and plants.

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